Four years later, it stills the same nothing can stop the pain of my heart. Once day, a lovely lecturer of mine, he gave me a call and asked out.
He looked into my eyes and said “what’s happened to you, my dear? You know, you make me worried to die. You're a lovely student of mine, how come? Let’s me know about your problem I’ll do my best to help you out.” I glanced at him with the fog cleared slightly face “Dear lecturer, it about four years later, the pain it keeps living in my heart and asking me why? No matter how hard I try, nothing can makes me feel better because a guy who leaved without telling me a reason or a word goodbye. I felt, I didn’t love him, but why it hurts in my heart?” I replied.
He looked into my eyes and said “what’s happened to you, my dear? You know, you make me worried to die. You're a lovely student of mine, how come? Let’s me know about your problem I’ll do my best to help you out.” I glanced at him with the fog cleared slightly face “Dear lecturer, it about four years later, the pain it keeps living in my heart and asking me why? No matter how hard I try, nothing can makes me feel better because a guy who leaved without telling me a reason or a word goodbye. I felt, I didn’t love him, but why it hurts in my heart?” I replied.
“My cutie student, please don’t trick you self. Please say that you love him because you did so. Why you have to afraid of just telling you self you do love him. And courage you self to be pleased for the present life. He gone, he needs his life better and why you want to live in punish ability life? Ask yourself, To be or Not to be, Possible or not possible. Will you possible to meet him in the future as a husband and wife or not? If not, will continuous to punish you self like this ever and ever after? Please do love yourself first before you love other person.” he answered and there were no debates, what so ever. I glanced into his eyes and thought he was right! Never doubt the word of my lecturer...! Then he told me about his love life when he was young (I thought he was not young but he said so).
After that I concentrated and debated with myself. How come? These words never set up in my brain or because of I lay my self. I couldn’t keep hold of you then. I knew I was dumb I was wrong to let you down. Ohhh, way to go! How truly stupid I am!....
Subsequently, after the love was gone I just wanted him to be happy. By the way I wanted myself to be happy too, I do courage myself I do love him so. I feel much better now because I know how I feel about him whether it’s nobler in the mind to suffer, but it’s only in the box in the past. I can’t bring yesterday back around. Then all I know I do everything for my pleasure life ever and ever after.
The First Cut Is The Deepest...
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Everything is over, don't try to keep it alive with you just let it goes.
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